Panic Attack!

After I got accepted into BYU H, it still wasn't official that I was going to move to Hawaii. But the thought of it really excited me. Well I was cutting one of my regular clients hair and she asked me about it...at that point I knew I really needed to decide. So I signed my intent to enroll paper and my momma faxed it the next day! There is no going back now. I'm really moving. Well monday night after I felt like a signed my life away I headed down to my room. Lying in bed, looking at all my pictures with my friends and family, looking at my ever growing DVD collections, my books, MY CLOTHES, I realized, I won't see these friends for quite possibly 2 years, I won't be able to watch all my movies, I won't be able to read all my books, I definitley won't be able to take all my clothes! I started to have a mild panic attack. I'm really going...DEEP BREATHS! I called Laura, broke down crying cause I was freaking out about leaving but finally I calmed down. I believe that I'm suppose to go to Hawaii. I didn't have good grades in high school and I definitly didn't have a good ACT score so the only reason I could have gotten in is because I'm part Hawaiian and/or because that is where Heavenly father wants me to go. I like to believe the latter because it makes it a little easier. I'll still miss my friends an family. If anyone remembers when I moved to Provo...yeah I came home almost every weekend. In Hawaii thats not an option. So I'll REALLY miss everyone! But hopefully I can meet a hot maori, australian, tahitian or just plain hot man to console me! anyway, its still 7 months away but it'll be here before I know or am ready for it!